Thursday, October 12, 2006
Life is like a form of gambling. Sometimes you will keep winning while sometimes you will keep losing. There are also times when you win and lose at the same time. In this case we will have to weigh the extent of gain or lost. To me, at this point of life, i lost some things more than the things that i gained. 'Friends forever'.. i thought this quote is true in reality. But i'm just too native. Friends last only at the happy moments. And then they will leave you and put you aside eventually. And of course those promises are also failed to achieve. I dunno what happened or maybe i knew. Somethings i have been lying since you all know me. But if u guys think that if you don't know these lies, will the situation turns out to be like this? Somethings its just difficult to say. I know that i shouldnt lie but there are things that are not within my control. Forgive me please. sorry. Just like a coin which has two faces. whenever one tosses the coin the chance of getting a head or a tail will be the same. But there is always a small possibility of getting a balanced coin. To me again, i just wna strike this balance. But it seems to be impossible. I have been trying my utmost best to help others if you all knew that, but when i'm in need for help, there is no one by my side not even a single soul. I'm helpless. so helpless. I dont know what should i do or which direction should i go. Worst of all, i dont even know is there anything meaningful for me to live on.. perhaps my life is faithed to be like this. just faithed.. .. .. i wish i can have a really long sleep and never wake up because i'm tired. Tired to help people who turns out to be like this. I fullfiled all the Scouts law but i failed to keep the 3rd law. Please save me or else i may run out of breath.
-jaylo-
6:16 PM
